well-behaved chaos

sex worker problem

knowing that some of my coworkers are shady and will steal calls out from under you if they get the chance, not list you as being available, and being catty behind your back.  Not knowing who they are, but hearing rumors and knowing that these things DO happen.  Not really being able to do anything about it.  We’re peers, but we’re also in competition with each other for money and that can bring out the worst in people.

Feels kinda like a shitty reality show.  I haven’t *seen* this shit happen, but I know it does.  I also know some of my coworkers don’t like me, but what am I gonna do about it?  I’m not going to try to ingratiate myself to them.  They can like me or not like me, I don’t care.  I know a part of it is that I’m the new girl, so the people that have been around for years are used to seeing new girls come in and take their business and will not like me just because I’m new and they don’t know how serious I am or whether or not I’m going to quit out of the blue.  I just have to focus on myself and my business and watch my back.  Bitches be shady, it’s out of my control.  I can at least feel good that I’m not like that.  That’s not in my nature.

They can be Tyra Sanchez all they want, I’m just gonna sit back and be Nina Flowers.